Its been a really long while since i actually wrote anything here, and i really wonder why. Well i guess its because i have been going through what i would call "the process" . I'm not done with it though, but i guess i have time to put something down. Funny thing really is, i don't know what i'm about to blab on and on about.
Hmnn! Maybe talking about my process would be a good idea then. Ever feel like the walls are closing in on you? Or maybe when you think "whats the worst that could happen" something happens and you just don't get it. Crazy huh? Well thats life!
"First cut is the deepest" playing on my system. Don't ask why i said that.................................. :-)
Anyway back to what i was talking about. It's a crazy world we are living in, and sometimes in our journey through life, we get to the true reality of life and just how unfair it can be. We often find ourselves stuck in the rut and down to the barest minimum.
I read somewhere that "When you are down to nothing, then for the first time you realize that God is all you need" I agree! But there is always a process he takes you through. Its never the same for everyone and i guess its never the same time frame aswell. So this is where it gets confusing, some peeps get through stuff faster and are onto other things, while some peeps are there for a while.
I guess it can also be refered to as alone time, because you feel alone and deserted aswell. But you also know what they say "At the time when you feel most alone, God is right there with you" i agree! but how do you know, Honestly you don't have a blue print that gives you all the info you need, but you have to believe that he will see you through.
Guess its like the analogy of refining Gold, we all know how in its raw form , it has potential, but not until it goes through the fire (process) and comes out do you see its full potentials begin to show. Or just like a diamond, where you have to be patient while cutting, to get the most value out of it.
The process is never an easy stage to be in, because you sometimes want to give up and just walk away, you wonder if there would ever be an end, you wonder if someday, somehow, sometime would ever make sense to you.
Well i'm still in my process, but i do know that no matter how long it takes, its definately worth it. It might not be what you have worked out in your mind but its always the best for you and when you finally get it, you will know it too.
Plus you will be glad when it happens! Hang in there, There is a God and he will see you through!
PS: Saw "Casino royale" the other day and it wasn't half as bad, going to see "Holiday" on friday and will see "Eragon" when it starts showing! Love Jeremy Irons by the way. Havent gotten over him from 'Kingdom of Heaven" AND I STILL LOVE "ORLANDO BLOOM" :-) :-) not getting that twisted :-)
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I have always believed that the outpouring of one's thoughts is one of life's best medicines. Amazing how that we often think we've figured out life, the do's and the don'ts as well as the paths we ought to take the avoid pain. And just when we rest in our paranoia, reality hits the face and unprepared as we often are, we sink into the oceans of despair. Every man goes through some process...for some it's a process of discovering your passions, for others it's to find your niche. Whatever it is, hang in there. Let God work through you and refine you for his work. One of my favourite scriptures succintly puts it thus; "...rejoice though now for a season, if need be, you are in heaviness through manifold temptations: For the trial of your faith, being much more precious than that of Gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ" 1 Peter 1:6,7.
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