Tuesday, December 19, 2006

More Than Words

More Than Words

Saying i love you
is not the words i want to hear from you
it's not that i don't want you
not to say but if you only knew
how, easy
it would be to show me how you feel

more than words
is you have to do
to make it real
then you wouldn't have to say
tha you love me
cuz i'd already know

Chorus
what would you do
if my heart was turning to
more than words
to show you feel
that your love for me is real
What would you say
if i took those words away
then you couldn't make things new
just by saying, i love you

Now that i've tried to
talk to you and make you understand
all you have to do
is close your eyes and just reach out your hands
and touch me
hold me close don't ever let me go

More than words
is all i ever needed you to show
then you wouldn't have to say,
that you love me
cuz id already know

Chorus again

its more than words , its more than
what you say
its the things you do

Really love this song! this is like my best song of all times. The words make perfect meaning to me. Its not all about the words, cuz anyone can say anything they think or they feel at anypoint, but do they really mean it?
i don't think love is what you say. Me thinks its what you do, and how you do it, and most importantly when you do it. It's really no use doing something when its too late and all.
Well its christmas again and the true meaning of christmas for me is LOVE. The love of a father for his children, the birth of the essense of love.

You know it gets crazy when you hear things like "love is patient" "love is kind", "Love is long suffering". How many of us are really patient with those we claim to love, or even kind to them or even willing to work things out or take things one step at a time.
I'm guilty of not being some of thise things and the truth is i find it easy to blame it on "thats the kind of person i am" 'You know i'm the kind of person that" and all. I hope this excuse sounds familiar to some peeps.

It then takes me down to the issue of forgiveness. I really always wonder what it entails. its crazy when you decide to forgive a person and somehow, you are always reminded of what they did to you, especially if they keep doing the same thing over and over again. How do you get past it really? i struggle with things like that sometimes.
Most times i basically go like well fine i'm done being mad at this person and all, but i tend to avoid them in the best way i can. i get that they have the tendency to do certain stuff and i just never give them the opportunity to anymore.

now one still wonders, is that good or bad. Cuz its almost like writing a person off in certain aspects and whatever happened to change. I mean people do change and all right?

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Hey

Its been a really long while since i actually wrote anything here, and i really wonder why. Well i guess its because i have been going through what i would call "the process" . I'm not done with it though, but i guess i have time to put something down. Funny thing really is, i don't know what i'm about to blab on and on about.

Hmnn! Maybe talking about my process would be a good idea then. Ever feel like the walls are closing in on you? Or maybe when you think "whats the worst that could happen" something happens and you just don't get it. Crazy huh? Well thats life!

"First cut is the deepest" playing on my system. Don't ask why i said that.................................. :-)

Anyway back to what i was talking about. It's a crazy world we are living in, and sometimes in our journey through life, we get to the true reality of life and just how unfair it can be. We often find ourselves stuck in the rut and down to the barest minimum.
I read somewhere that "When you are down to nothing, then for the first time you realize that God is all you need" I agree! But there is always a process he takes you through. Its never the same for everyone and i guess its never the same time frame aswell. So this is where it gets confusing, some peeps get through stuff faster and are onto other things, while some peeps are there for a while.

I guess it can also be refered to as alone time, because you feel alone and deserted aswell. But you also know what they say "At the time when you feel most alone, God is right there with you" i agree! but how do you know, Honestly you don't have a blue print that gives you all the info you need, but you have to believe that he will see you through.

Guess its like the analogy of refining Gold, we all know how in its raw form , it has potential, but not until it goes through the fire (process) and comes out do you see its full potentials begin to show. Or just like a diamond, where you have to be patient while cutting, to get the most value out of it.

The process is never an easy stage to be in, because you sometimes want to give up and just walk away, you wonder if there would ever be an end, you wonder if someday, somehow, sometime would ever make sense to you.

Well i'm still in my process, but i do know that no matter how long it takes, its definately worth it. It might not be what you have worked out in your mind but its always the best for you and when you finally get it, you will know it too.

Plus you will be glad when it happens! Hang in there, There is a God and he will see you through!


PS: Saw "Casino royale" the other day and it wasn't half as bad, going to see "Holiday" on friday and will see "Eragon" when it starts showing! Love Jeremy Irons by the way. Havent gotten over him from 'Kingdom of Heaven" AND I STILL LOVE "ORLANDO BLOOM" :-) :-) not getting that twisted :-)


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