LEAVE OVER OH!!!!

Sounds incoherent right………….. that’s a common phrase at work.  A few weeks before leave commences the lucky person starts announcing “handover o” just to annoy everyone and yes it works. The catch however is when the leave is almost over, other colleagues begin every conversation they have with that person with “leave over o” and trust me, that hurts even more.

So that’s where I am at now………..leave over o! My 26 day leave has finally come to an end and I am back at work. Not the happiest really as I have lost the enthusiasm associated with it! Mehn I hope none of my …….. ever come across this post. No thanks to the ones that gave me grief when I was applying for my leave.

So back to my day, I had this out of body experience this morning, but not in a good way.  This was not the kind where you are way beyond excited about something. This was more like a disconnect. It felt really strange going back to my routine. You know when people say, they are physically present somewhere but their minds are far away. Both mind and body felt alien to the routine today.

And I know many of you will say “then just change or quit or something” especially after I tell you that time spent there is considerably near a decade. Hmm ……………..easier said than done o. A girl has needs o! Especially when you are single and still living with daddy. I need to be able to maintain my lifestyle.

Let me quickly correct you here………..i no be rich man pikin o! Middle class and not ashamed. How come I have a lifestyle abi? Everybody can have a lifestyle really, it’s all about having a particular idea of what your comfort level is, so yes I have a lifestyle. And to keep it that way, I cannot shakara o. And yes this may be the wrong kind of mentality but if you consider that I may not have the entrepreneurship gene it might make some sense to you.

Let me start by listing out all my failed businesses; first there was selling “Akosombo”  the Ghanaian material, well I wouldn’t exactly call that one a failed business, because it was what convinced me into thinking that I could actually sell and make money! But then again, it proved to be very expensive o, after calculating airfare to Ghana, the proceeds didn’t quite add up. Next I decided to sell shirts. This time, I sold them on order. So really I had all my customers before I even went ahead to purchase the shirts, and I made some good money there o, at least the proceeds paid part of my Cornell University online program fees in 2010. i quit business for a while because I was studying and I caught the business bug again in 2011, I put money together and decided to try baby clothes. I was sure there was a market for this here, but I guess I did not put into consideration how saturated it was. ………

So it turned out, I sold quite a number of the stuff I got, but I had a rude introduction to naija buyers! The do not pay o!! kai as we  speak, I still have over  well 50 grand in different hands.  I was only able to hit my cost price, thank God for that. I counted my losses, gave out the remaining clothes and moved on.

I wouldn’t exactly say moved on, because I am even more convinced that I am not cut out to be an entrepreneur or should I just say the buying and selling business!  Who do I blame for this now? While I do not intend to blame my parents o, but all I was told as a child was “make sure you read your books and pass, so you can get a good job”. I was wired right from childhood to be an employee. And all I wanted to do was to leave school and get that good job! Well…..here I am!

To be continued……………..

DREAMS

It feels a bit weird writing here again, it kinda seems like a yearly affair or something………………but the good news is that the year is not over yet, so I should get some credit for that at least….lol

I am writing but I do not even know what to title this out of the blues post of mine. Worse still, I am not sure what I even want to write about……….and just now dreams came to me. So I guess that’s what I would do, talk about dreams.

Hmmm dreams……. not referring to the semi unconcious state we get into every night when we lie in bed. I mean the other kind of dreaming which we do when we are wide awake and moving around or if you are like me, sometimes when we lie in bed but still very awake and conscious.

The other day, my bestie (who also convinced me recently to write more) was talking to me about knowing who you are first before you proceed to know what you want in your future better half. That actually inspired me to put pen to paper in an attempt to describe myself.

So I end up with this really long list (and don’t worry, I put in the good and bad stuff. I was so honest, I amazed myself….lol). So ……somewhere in that list was the attribute “day dreamer”.

I think I am the worst kind of day dreamer there is. I started day dreaming as a child. I remember very clearly and it started with TV. I watch a TV programme and I do not like how it ends, not to worry, I go to bed at night and lie awake for a few minutes or an hour or two and finish it in my head, and I pretty much grew up with that. So I tend to dream up my own happy endings. I see myself doing the things I always wanted to do and achieve all the things I want to in my mind’s eye.

I would like to add here that I am also a very graphic person, I can visualize in my mind conversations I’m having as they are going on, that’s probably from too much fantasizing and day dreaming.   Asides, the fun of it all, these are really things I want and the best way to keep me trying to achieve it, is keeping it alive in my mind. How else, but by constantly seeing it in my mind’s eye.

Now everyone has some dream or the other. I know that dreams do come true, one or two of mine have………so keep dreaming and believing for you never know which will come true.